speak your truth

“Speaking your truth is the most powerful tool we have”

– Oprah Winfrey

———————————————————

Those people who speak so confidently and have such a presence when they share their ideas, opinions, or viewpoints are truly something special. The ones who speak up for what’s right and speak against something when it is wrong can truly leave you in awe at their hearts and their courage. These people are genuine and live out loud, and it’s all because they speak their truth. They are who I want each and every one of you to aspire to be. What I desire so badly is for you to be bold, and to be outspoken. I want you to speak your truth.

S p e a k  y o u r  t r u t h

Whether you have heard of speaking your truth or not I know that you have felt it. It’s the feeling of wanting to say something, but you don’t. The urge to speak your opinion that you believe in but you decide it’s better not to. The small sense of strength to stand up to evil, but you let fear halt you instead. That twinge of bravery is inside all of you. Whether it’s small or big, it’s there.

Your truth is genuine and personal. It is your voice and experiences put out into this world, and it can be exciting yet scary at the same time because it can become permanent, but in reality that’s the magic about it. You are able to leave an imprint on the world or on someone who needs to hear it. This truth is unique because it can come in all shapes and forms: a blog, a speech, a question, a personal story, an opinion, a rally, or even a simple statement. There’s such a beauty about it because our world is built upon truths. It’s built upon my truth, and your truth, and our ancestors truths. And the world will continue to change, adapt, and grow based on our truths that we tell today, tomorrow, and so forth. Boldness and bravery are pure and real, and that is what our world so desperately needs right now. It needs fighters. Yet, the abilitity to act on it, and speak your truth comes from you alone. It is important that you find it.

I m p o r t a n t

Feeling unimportant is negativity that tries its hardest to creep into our minds and hearts. I know I feel this on numerous occasions, and know I have lost my voice on numerous occasions, but I have always found a way to regain it. I recover it because I know it’s important.

For me personally I went to three high schools and two colleges so with all the moving I became extremely passive. I was already naturally shy and all of the moves and newness just made it even more concrete. I was quiet, a people pleaser, very unopionionated, and hated any type of confrontation. All of this made me feel like I needed to keep to myself and not express myself. It wasn’t until I was forced to use my voice in a moment of defense that I realized how powerful my voice is . There was such a change in my heart to not only stand up for myself, but to especially stand up for others who can’t. I felt such a calling to stand up for others and love others. From then on out I decided to always believe in myself, my truth, and the impact I can have.

B e l i e v e  i n  y o u

A biased opinion of mine would be that it is absolutely okay to be extremely outspoken, opinionated, confident, and to overly express yourself. Whether someone believes in you shouldn’t falter your heart because you should have such strong belief in you. The most self growth and self love I have come to find for myself has been from me speaking my truth, as it has gifted me strength and empowerment. I believe in my voice, I believe in my thoughts, and I believe in what is placed on my heart for me to share. For example this blog was not solely made to be a hobby, but to share what I believe someone out there might need to hear. Maybe it’ll help someone and maybe it won’t but it is on my heart to spread with others…so I take the chance of sharing it. So know that you matter, your voice matters, and your heart and willingness to make change matters. All it takes is courage to be that one.

B e  t h a t  o n e

In a room full of people be that one who isn’t afraid to be a light. Speak what is on your heart. Show the world what you think, what you have to offer, what you find beautiful and what you find infuriating. Do not fall into the habit of “it’s fine” when it truly isn’t. If you don’t agree with someone for positive reasons, then be willing to have a conversation. If you don’t like the way someone treats you then tell them. Speak your truth. Do not let this world confine you into this box that you do not belong in. Use your voice, especially for those who cannot. Your voice is a tool, and what you choose to do with it is solely up to you.

Y o u r  v o i c e  m a t t e r s

No two people are the same. They don’t think exactly the same, act the same, or look exactly the same. Please let this resonate with you and understand how original and one of a kind you are. You are the only you. God knitted you so unique and for a purpose!! That is what is so incredible about all of this, and that is why I want you to embrace your voice! It is why it is your truth and not just any truth. You have something to offer whether you believe in it or not. I believe each and every one of you have something so vital that needs to be shared with this world. What you have to say matters. Your truth can shake grounds, move hearts, and create change. The power within you won’t be given…you have to take it. So use your voice and grasp it.

Be empowered. Speak your truth. Make the world listen.

heaven

waiting, okayness, struggle

“Every day God invites us on the same kind of adventure. It’s not a trip where He sends us a rigid itinerary, He simply invites us. God asks what it is He’s made us to love, what it is that captures our attention, what feeds that deep indescribable need of our souls to experience the richness of the world He made. And then, leaning over us, He whispers, “Let’s go do that together.”
― Bob Goff

———————————————————

This blog was created about a month ago on a crazy whim. Since then I have written probably ten or so blogs that are just sitting and waiting in my drafts. For some reason I haven’t been able to muster up the courage to press publish, and it is so confusing because I get such a frenzy when I write. It seems as if I keep telling myself it is best to wait.

I t   i s   b e s t   t o   w a i t.

This is the current struggle I have been dealing with day in and day out. I have become so consistent in pushing back things I know I should be pursuing. In my heart I believe they are going to fill me up with so much joy and love, but I end up demeaning them to make them not that important. It’s as if I’m dwelling in the uncertainty that they might bring me. I know I dont want comfortable, yet i am comfortable. I want a constant life of epiphanies, and soul changing experiences and yet I am scared. That is not naturally who I am and somehow it is who I’ve become. The genuine me wants to be reminded every day how good this life is, and to know that I am not wasting my time by being scared or afraid. I want daily action from myself because I want to know what all this world has to offer.

Recently I was asked by an old friend from high school who I was without a bat or glove (hey brian if you’re reading this!) A simple question that I took with such an open heart because that question has been such an internal struggle for me as of late. Being a softball player has always been that concrete identity for me, and yet my identity outside of it is somewhat weak. I know I am a Christian, a daughter, a friend, a sister, found and yet still lost. I know I love people. I know my interests, and what I like to do. I know I am extremely emotional and take everything to heart. I know I have passions that I haven’t yet pursued. I know I am empowered. And i know I am at a point in my life where i just don’t fully know who I am. And somehow i can finally say that is okay.

A n d   t h a t   i s   o k a y.

I’ve come to learn that it is perfectly okay to not be okay. To not know who I am or what I want at this moment in my life isn’t terrible as some may make it out to be. An author I’ve recently discovered is Bob Goff and he states, “ …He’s made us to love, what it is that captures our attention, what feeds that deep indescribable need of our souls to experience the richness of the world.” I’ve read this line over and over and it continuosly comforts me in my time of confusion. This is truly why I believe I don’t know who I am and why there is a feeling of loss in me. I feel so much love for so many vastly different things, and I see so much richness in everything that surrounds me. The love I feel for everyone and everything is so intense and it can be incredibly overwhelming to even think about just choosing one thing for the rest of my life. However, the appreciation I feel towards not knowing right now continues to overcome me because if I knew who and what I was for sure now, then what would I have to look forward to in my future?  The growth I am prepared for is immeasurably exciting and that is why it is so great because there is beauty in my struggle.

B e a u t y   i n   m y   s t r u g g l e.

The beauty in all of this is that the more that I learn to say yes and work my way out of this waiting pattern the more I will discover who I am. The relation these three things have in common is so distinct. Yet for now I am okay with being me and solely me with no judgement or pressure from anyone else. I am okay with being lost but making sure I’m lost with a purpose. I am okay with trying things out and failing, and I am okay with growing. I am okay with my new season of life that I wasn’t expecting. I am okay with the challenges God has presented me with. I am perfectly and genuinely okay with who I am right now, and I am absolutely ecstatically okay with who I believe I will one day be. Life can come at you fast, but I’m ready to take it on.

So with nothing to lose and everything to gain I finally press publish.

heaven

hey there

Hey there. I can’t remember the last time I willingly sat down to write which is odd because high school me loved to write. I loved getting to make my thoughts permanent and to feel like my words were going to matter to others even if nobody would ever read them. I think I am starting to realize all of the small things I loved to do so much that made me me, and I hope to slowly find these again. Hopefully this was worth my money haha!!

I guess I should let you know this blog is dedicated to nothing. It will simply be my thoughts, questions, ideas, nonsense, quotes, and how I feel. Ridiculous? Maybe. But I love it and I am super excited to just sit down and begin writing again. I may not be the best writer but I pour every ounce of me into my words and hopefully for my tens of readers you will see that.

See you soon,

heaven